Life has not really improved

I'm such a failure. I cant for the life of me get a woman. Not that I have really tried. But I guess that is the main problem here. I don't really try...ever. I chicken out always as the last minute and I don't seem to have the balls to approach anyone that I really could fancy. It's not that Im ugly or anything. I have broken my fair share of hearts up trough the years. The main issue is that I really cant pick up the signals when a woman really has an intrest in me. And when I do, the girls is more than often so repulsive I just shut her down.

All in all I have a real issue at hand here. I want a woman I can respect, that can challenge me intellectually, that can be my best friend and my lover. I want a woman I can have a fight with and get together with. I want one that can see the same movies as I do, withouth sighing and whining about how crappy the film was. I want a soulmate, even though I am a firm believer that there is not thing as a soul. I want the dreamgirl that still yet has to appear.

I guess Im not the most social being around. I really dont like meeting new people, and I tend to keep to myself. But that I something I really want to change. I know a lot of really social people, that tend to connect with anything they come across, making friends where ever they go. I guess we are all different:/

As a final note, I want to add that both the two adds on this blogg [as well as the ones to come] most likely will be written under heavy intoxication of alchohol, as this appears to be the best time to whine about the complete stupidity of life. And so I'd like to appologice as there might be a series of horrible gramatical and spelling errors. English is not my first language as Im born and raised in Norway, but it's the best I can do while hammered. As for life, it's a sad ride, showing you all the stuff you could have had, while in reality you can't have anything.